it is safe to say that:

I                  Molly DeGraff                           LOVE                           Joshua Grover                     

sooooo I had a slight operation on my right wrist yesterday.... sucks major ass....

I'm starting to use my LJ again...... and less of this and Myspace.....

Big thing too--- I start at OCC in JANURAY!!! I'm so excited...
I gotta make some halloween treats today - neighborhood party is tomorrow afternoon

Josh went home for the weekend- which means I don't get to talk to him all night and day this weekend because he doesn't get to get on the internet when he goes home. He called me last night at 12:30 or so and woke me up though lol... but I didn't care because I love him soooo much!!!!

I'm done with all this drama shit... I have so much I want to say to all of them out in Ann Arbor. I just love how Craig now hates me because Mike does... and Chibi hates me because Craig and Mike do... it's just so funny. Mike said I'm immature? I'm happy to know that I'm the immature one.... maybe he should look around................. This whole thing is stupid too.... I mean he hates me because he believes brandon when brandon claims I called Alyssa a whore.... well guess what brandon, YOU'RE WRONG I DIDN'T! I don't give a fuck what all of you think... all that matters is that I Know I NEVER told Josh Alyssa was a whore. All I said was that she was throwing herself up against the window at Jimmy Johns and it was fuckin hilarious!!!

People really make me laugh you know that...???

BUt no the reason I don't care about that anymore is because I have so much other shit to deal with ... and obviously they aren't real friends anyways... Mike was always talkin shit about me behind my back. Chibi told me all about it... sooo whatever.... people are gay....

I'm moving out to New York in August. I can't wait!!!!!

I love you josh!

I'm getting pretty annoyed with.... just everything in general....
People are really starting to upest me. I just lost my who I thought was my best friend... someone who said they'd always be there, someone who told me they loved me, who would listen to my problems... yeah I guess I was wrong huh?
I knew it was too good to be true. I knew I should have listened to everyone who was telling me he was lying to me....
I knew I should have just given up on it a long time ago.... It's just,  I couldn't. He was like... a brother to me... No really he was. He was seriously like the best "big brother" I've ever had.... and now he's gone. *sigh* whatever though right...? I mean it was over something stupid... something that wasn't even true, or real... some bull shit lies because someone likes plotting againts me... someone who also was suppose to be a good friend of mine as well... That's what I don't get... why is everyone turning on me... then starting drama, walking away from that problem and saying I'm the drama creator? No I'm not... It's just if you start an issue with me... I don't want to walk away from it until it is either resolved, or at least talked about.... not where one person gets hung up on without getting to really talk... and without you saying ANYTHING other than... "well this person said you said this..." Ugh! It's fuckin bull shit! I loved all of those people so much. I never said that shit to Josh about her... I never would. She knows I said it a long time ago... but then I got to know her and that changed REAL quickly.....I can't believe that she of all people wouldn't even listen to me... *sigh* It was really quite upsetting....

anyways, screw it. I'm not going to sit here and kill myself about this. Yeah they were some of my best friends. People I loved and cared the most about, people whom I'd do just about anything for... Hell Jen and I dropped everything drove to chesaning with our money to pick up Alyssa, then brought her back to Rochester. Stayed the night there... drove all the way to Ann Arbor, then back to Rochester, to turn around 2 seconds later to drive her BACK to chesaning... so Jen and I could come back to Rochester for the night again.... I figured out how Jen and I could manage to do that, because I knew how badly Mike, and Alyssa wanted to see eachother. It's fucking bull shit. I lied to Alyssa's parents this weekend saying she was staying at my place friday night, when in all reality, I didn't even see her until Saturday. She went and stayed at Mikes place for the night.... Why is it, that everything good I do, is over looked 100% and the few flaws I have or mistakes I make, are the only things that ever show to people? Why is it the people who claim to love me the most, end up leaving just as fast as they came in...? I'm sick of trusting people. I'm sick of relying on people.... I'm sick of believeing people when they say "I love you" I'm done, I'm not going to fall for this one more time... I know I sound extreemly emo, but I'm not... I'm just fuckin sick of everyone's bull shit and blaming everything on me

so to end this I will say.....
Josh, I love you. You're my everything. I can't wait to see you!!